Growth has been on my mind a lot lately.
Do you ever take a second to pause and reflect on how much things have changed from where you were a year ago and how much you have grown? Do you think about all the new experiences you’ve gained and the new ways you’ve built resilience?
All the times you’ve fallen and got back up? All the times you celebrated?
People say a lot can happen in a year. And they’re right.
This year has been the first year in a long time where I have finally felt closer to being myself. Instead of fighting with myself, I’ve gotten more comfortable with who I am. And that’s one of the best feelings in the world.
Every now and again, I like to look back over the last six months, year or even two years to take stock of the experiences I gained, new things I’ve learned and different ways I’ve grown. When I look back, it reminds me of how much stronger I’ve become and the new ways I see the world.
They say that as you get older, you get wiser. Not that I feel much wiser, but I have discovered that I now have a lot more experiences to draw on when I’m faced with a big decision or a challenge. And that I can look back on times where I had to push myself outside of my comfort zone or face a fear, and how I overcame those challenges. (Like today, hitting publish on this post.)
It’s kind of that feeling when the training wheels come off, but you still need mom or dad there to run behind you in case you fall. It’s learning to believe in yourself and know that you will eventually fall, but you will get back up and have people around you that love you and support you and will continue to cheer you on. That’s what growing up has kind of felt like for me. Learning to lean on people when I need help and knowing that I can pull myself up, too.
Another thing I’ve learned about growing up is that life comes in seasons. There are those big seasons like college, your early 20s, getting married, having kids, losing a parent or loved one, starting a business or going back to college. Then there are seasons where you’re trying figure out what’s most important to you and making those things a priority in your life.
It’s accepting the weeks or months in your life where you’re going to miss the gym more than you’d like because life happens. It’s getting down and dirty in work and powering through because you know that the more focused you are, the more you can accomplish. It’s taken some time for me to recognize these seasons, but now that I know they exist, it has made it easier to get through the tough ones and to savor the special ones.
I’m currently coming out of a season where life and work is go, go, go and I’ve had to put “me” on the back burner for a couple of weeks. But that’s OK. Because I know that I’ll soon enter a season where I can go back to square one and spend more time filling my cup. Being able to recognize that there will be crazy times of your life and slow times of your life is what makes it easier to get through the moments that are messy, fast and at times, stressful.
Growing up is weird. There are days where I feel like I’m just a kid (especially when I’m in a room full of important people and I need to think on my feet) and other days I feel like I’ve got it together. I guess that’s the beauty of life is that almost everyone feels this way, regardless of if they’re 25 or 45. It’s all about gaining new experiences that shape you and mold you into the person that you are today.
Thank you for sticking with me through this rambling post. Growth is something I’m passionate about and I am thinking about incorporating more posts like this one into the blog. I welcome your questions or ideas, and would love to hear your thoughts on growth, too.
What are your thoughts on growth? Have you experienced any growth lately?
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